I'm not in love

&& i'm finished wasting words, writing songs about boys.

i was watching "little miss sunshine" and for some random reason, it made me realize that i need to stop wasting my time on boys. i'm giving up on giving effort for trying or texting or talking to guys. i think i had enough of flirting. and it just made me realize that all this flirting non-sense either makes me or the other guy hurt in the end. and i'm just not that kind of girl.. i'm sickkk and tireddd everytime a guy gets mad at me for something i started and i end up feeling like shit in the end of the day. i learned my lesson and i can't fool these guys, i just find myself fooling myself.

i'm 18. single. and loving EVERY s.i.n.g.l.e minuteeeeee of it. yes sir, SINGLE, and READY to mingle. that's right, i am ready to meet new people and maybe even enter a "serious" relationship. but i'm gonna do it right this time. i'm not going to search for him nor am i going to wait for him. i'm still going to continue living my life and have fun. but when he does suddenly 'appear' in my life in the right time, i won't give in so much like i usually do. i'm tired of trying to win a guys heart. this time, 'he's' gona try to win my heart. your just gona have to do more than that.