hang in there dad.

my tita marivic tells me that my dad is in the hospital. The doc says his condition isn't good. Should i be surprised? or should i just suck it all in because this isn't the first, nor the third or seventh but rather a great number of times he's been in there. then tita marivic said something that made my heart pause a few seconds. "i hope we'll still reach him when we go back in march".

i hope. I HOPE? what's that suppose to mean? that there's a possibility he'll be gone before march? and the doc says his condition isn't doing good, wth is that suppose to mean too?

i went home earlier from the mall happy because i bought myself some really cute shirts. i was stupid. i should have stayed there a little bit longer.



instead, i went home and i am now in this kind of pain. pain. pain is inevitable. to struggle, i suppose, is a choice.