hang in there dad.

my tita marivic tells me that my dad is in the hospital. The doc says his condition isn't good. Should i be surprised? or should i just suck it all in because this isn't the first, nor the third or seventh but rather a great number of times he's been in there. then tita marivic said something that made my heart pause a few seconds. "i hope we'll still reach him when we go back in march".

i hope. I HOPE? what's that suppose to mean? that there's a possibility he'll be gone before march? and the doc says his condition isn't doing good, wth is that suppose to mean too?

i went home earlier from the mall happy because i bought myself some really cute shirts. i was stupid. i should have stayed there a little bit longer.



instead, i went home and i am now in this kind of pain. pain. pain is inevitable. to struggle, i suppose, is a choice.

To love and to Be loved.

You know, it`s kinda nice to see someone I love, happy.
To know that their doing ok.
Especially when that person doesn't know that their loved by me.
That's probably the best part of it. :)







Don't Lose Hope,
Donna

C.H.N.

Two times a week, I have CHN which stands for Community Health Nursing. We go to depressed areas and do our service for the society. Today I brought my camera (finally) and took some shots of what we see every time we go there. Take a glimpse of the life of Tondod, San Jose zone 1

Unfold

i know it sounds all emo, but ITS NICE! all of marie digby's songs are great (: i recommend it. go get yourself a copy peeps! or just steal em online x]

long distance

I've never been so bored in my life. MMkayy so probably i've had worse days. So today i've been downloading songs and I came across this one song, "Long Distance" by Brandy. And a particular guy popped up in my head. And it just sucks, just thinking about 'what if's', what would happen if I was back there and not here? I know he's probably moved on and doesn't think about me much. I've moved on I guess you can say, but that didn't mean I forgot about him. I think of him from time to time. I don't mean too, he just crosses my mind all of a sudden. And I can't help but miss him. I can't really talk to anyone about this. There's really no one talk to about this this situation. =(

There`s only so many songs that i can sing to pass the time.
And i`m running out of things to do to get you off my mind (oh whoa).
All i have is this picture in a frame (oh ah),
That i hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where i`d rather be,
But we`re stuck where we are.
It`s so hard, you`re so far..
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me,
But we`re stuck where we are
It`s so hard, you`re so far.. (so hard, you`re so far..)
This long distance is killing me.

It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

Now the minutes feel like hours
And the hours feel like days.. (whoa oh whoa)
While i`m away (way-ay)
You know right now i can`t be home (ah)
But i`m coming home soon (ah)
Coming home soon.. (ah a hah)
All i have is this picture in a frame (ah),
That i hold close to see your face everyday.

With you is where i`d rather be (where i`d rather be..),
But we`re stuck where we are (oh oh).
It`s so hard, (oh ah) you`re so far.. (oh ah)
This long distance is killing me.
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me),
But we`re stuck where we are (oh oh)
It`s so hard, (oh ah) you`re so far.. (oh ah)

Can you hear me crying?
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Can you hear me crying? (oh-oh ah!)
Ooh (oh-oh oh-oh)
Ooh woo whoa ah ah oh ah (oh-oh ah!)
Uh ah uh ah whoa0h ah (oh-oh oh-oh)

With you is where i`d rather be (where i`d rather be..) whoa!
(but we`re stuck where we are) oh!
(it`s so hard) so hard (your so far), so far
(this long distance is killing me) this long distance is killing me
I wish that you are here with me (you are here with me) me..
(but we`re stuck where we are) stuck where we are! so hard! so far
This long distance is killing me

It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far.
This long distance is killing me.
It`s so hard, it`s so hard, where we are, where we are, you`re so far
(so hard, so hard, where we are, where we are, your so far).
This long distance is killing me.

There`s only so many songs that i can sing to pass the time.

i think this song pretty much tackled everything i would have like to said.

Don't Lose Hope,
Donna

stresssin over a blesssin.

i have a long ass exam tomorrow on science & techonology PLUS a report about STRESS.

and to deal with this stress.. where the hell are the chocolates at?!


p.s. have you ever felt betrayed even though there's no reason for you to feel that way? yeaauhh. me too mang. me too.

Royalty.

We met the PRESIDENT............
































of Wesleyan University of the Philippines for the first time today :) haha we had our oath taking today for our "WUP ISO" organization. meaning WUP international student organization. HOLLAH (: so this morning i was smoking on some natural highness. i swear i was laughing at practically everythingggg. "look! its sir, and hes wearing stripes.. HAHA." "heyy its cinderellas tsinelas! HAHA". "hey its your face! HAHA"

I'm not in love

&& i'm finished wasting words, writing songs about boys.

i was watching "little miss sunshine" and for some random reason, it made me realize that i need to stop wasting my time on boys. i'm giving up on giving effort for trying or texting or talking to guys. i think i had enough of flirting. and it just made me realize that all this flirting non-sense either makes me or the other guy hurt in the end. and i'm just not that kind of girl.. i'm sickkk and tireddd everytime a guy gets mad at me for something i started and i end up feeling like shit in the end of the day. i learned my lesson and i can't fool these guys, i just find myself fooling myself.

i'm 18. single. and loving EVERY s.i.n.g.l.e minuteeeeee of it. yes sir, SINGLE, and READY to mingle. that's right, i am ready to meet new people and maybe even enter a "serious" relationship. but i'm gonna do it right this time. i'm not going to search for him nor am i going to wait for him. i'm still going to continue living my life and have fun. but when he does suddenly 'appear' in my life in the right time, i won't give in so much like i usually do. i'm tired of trying to win a guys heart. this time, 'he's' gona try to win my heart. your just gona have to do more than that.

It's Christmas Again

Super 5 finally had our gift exchange today :) It was hilarious because I remember sunshine asking me for help to pick out some earrings for her "cousin". She described her as "she likes to wear a lot of 'bling bling' " haha and this whole time I was the one she picked. Afterwords we ate @ mcdonalds, and there i go again, embarassing myself --we ordered chocolate sundaes and i unconciously blew a spoon full of ice cream, as if it was hella hott. hahaha


Anyways, i'm getting a tattoo next month. FOR SURE. God won't get mad at me right? I mean, it's not a sin or whatever right? At least the tattoo that i'm getting has meaning to it. I'm so excited i think i'm gonna piss in my pants. :)

Don't Lose Hope,
Donna

Monthly Visitor >=[

WELPS its the time of the month where every woman has a visitor. Today's the first day and i friggen ate too much !! I hate having periods. It just makes me gain weight and feel ugly about myself. Being a female is so damn hard. Other than that, i had duty earlier, that was a workout. Then i stopped by school before i went home to talk to thee best friend. when you see someone you care for hurting, it just sucks you know. it's like having to watch someone eat your donut in front of you and u can't do anything about it cuz the person's saliva is all over the damn thing. but i know that all problems will be solved. it just takes time. && for the donut, i know i could just buy another one. :-)


Don't Lost Hope,
Donna

Justice League!

So my college set up this meeting for all the foreigners who study in the school. It was cool meeting them. It felt like I was talking to my homies back home. haha and so we made our own little organization. "the foreigners" haha or i think its.. "international FSO?" ... or just plain .."JUSTICE LEAGUE!"

Back II School

I'M SO LAZY TO STUDY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and my hair is pissing me off. help anyone?!

sheryl, the small but terrible

it was sheryl's debut yesterday && i do not have enough fingers to count how many times i embarrassed myself. But it`s okay, the things i do for love :) for the most part, we disco'd like we were in the 1970's. && the boys had it all good with the belly dancers with huge boobs.

p.s. how can i not mention all THE HOTTIES WHO WERE THERE! i wouldn't mind being part of sheryl's family :-)

(message to sheryl)"make your own destiny"- Tito Ray
"i'll make my own destiny, and i choose sheryls older brother ;D"- me

MISSION ACCOMPLISHED :)

soo sheryl came over earlier and we composed a song for her debut within ONE hour. it`s a surprise for her parents. yeah mang ! i feel like a ninja (:

New year, new blogg.

Shit son, I was hella drunk last night. I knew I was talking and talking and talkinggggg but I forgot what the hell I was saying.

Wow so it's 09. 08 has been good to me. From the beginning of 08 to the last second of it, 08 has been perhaps the best year of my life. I met new people, I still kept my true friends, and despite the fact that I'm miles apart from my family and friends back home, I got to see mostly everyone that I love and care for that year. Truth be honest, it was kind of hard for me to let go of 08. Even though there were times when I broke down, God always gave me something to smile about. I will never forget the great memories that I made last year, all the drama that came about, the retardedness I made, the summer love, the heartbreaks, the people who stayed in my life and the new ones who made last year even more wonderful.



Don't Lose Hope,
donna


p.s. && in the end, cece drove herself home. HAHA. that's probably the only thing i remembered saying last ngiht.

Here's a pic of the big ass confetti from last night.
Happy 09 everyone.