Julienne

The memory that I am about to share about her is probably.. the only most memorable moment we have ever had. Well, I remember attending one of the Villaruz party.. and i remember one of the Tita's were taking out the ingrown from her toe. I was sitting next to julienne and because she was so terrified, she held my hand.. and I held hers.

As I ponder back upon this memory, I can't help myself but smile. She of all people, would be afraid of a little ingrown in her toe - yet, she was not afraid with the fact that her life could be taken away any day,.. any second.

And when I think about my life, about how or when I would die, I shudder with fear with just the thought of it. Death is inevitable. It is so unexpected, yet it is. It brings pain, yet it makes people stronger.

I have already experienced losing the loves of my life. I have moved on, but that doesn't mean I have already forgotten. I wish Julienne was still here to hold my hand, just like I held hers, to reassure me that everything will be okay.

Julienne died because of cancer. She was a very young, beautiful woman. Even though we weren't close, I hope you felt the love I had for you from the exchanged greetings, smiles and laughter we shared everytime we saw each other. I love you! Sleep well little one. And please tell my mom that I miss her everyday <3


Don't Lose Hope,
Donna